Well I am in Thailand now Krabi province on the island of Koh Lanta, my third time here. It has been the home of my brother and sister for many years so I try and visit them when I can.

So today and for the last 3 days I have been staying at small little home stay called Jai Dee Home on the beach 15m from the waters edge,. I previously stayed here a year and a half ago during low season, mid Julyish I think, this time it is November and the start of high season, It is still relaxed and a pleasant end to my trip of 2 years in Asia. When possible I have been relaxing  and hanging out with my brother Nathan and his daughter (quick note to those of you who know Nathan, he and his daughter seem to be 5 kilos heavier every time I see them, he is slowly turning into an oversized ox) however he is happy and all appears good on his end. I have been playing pool a bit in the evenings and that is about it. I have seen Natalie my sister and had a few drinks with her partner Ian Tiltman whom I have known since high school.

The schedule is; I have to fly from Phuket to Kuala Lumpur on the 29th and spend two days there as it was cheaper to fly from Phuket to KL than Krabi  to KL.

I am looking forward to visiting Phukets internationally renowned red light district for a colourful stroll one evening soon hopefully to practice some short skirt and low light photography! as this kind of eye candy is rare in Bristol in Dec, if it turns out to be a success then pictures soon,..

OK, To be honest for the last month I have often woken up in the early hours of the night in a cold sweat because;

1.I know England is freezing cold now, I will be returning to a situation of;  being single whilst most of my remaining friends are in long term relationships,  no job, economic downturn, talk of recession and house prices blah blah, no waves, no sun, wind and lots of rain and a whole plethora of overweight pale women with attitude that will not even return a friendly smile!!!

So Phuket is going to be a little treat of female eye candy before I return as I have been told its full of short skirted high heeled Thai women, an abundance of  go go bars and perverted old caucasian men looking for some love in return for money. This sounds similar to Sukhumvit Road and Nana Entertainment Plaza  in Bangkok. Well that seems like good enough menu for a night out knowing what I will be experiencing once i have returned back to the UK in less than a week. In Bristol the only place i know to meet a fit woman is the adult gymnastics class. So to any women that are choosing to take offence here, please do not judge me as you read this because one; I am still single and two; honestly your boyfriend if he was left alone for long enough would probably be exactly the same.. and Asia caters to the truth of this.

I make no apologies for my simple existence,  I really know what I like in life, staying personally fit, strong and lean, eating well, surfing, skateboarding, motorbikes, sun, sea and sex with a willing beautiful fit woman with the dream of a loving relationship one day. I make no apologies for this and will happily accept all peoples judgement and criticism. I like to photograph as much of this as I can and thank God for my life so far. Previously I tried marriage, two point two children a house with a mortgage, a loft yearly filling up with worthless junk from the past and a partner with ever increasing social and financial aspirations. Thanks but no thanks and to all my friends and acquaintances living this way I HOPE IN ALL HONESTY YOUR HEART IS NOT CRYING BEHIND THE SOCIAL SMILES..

I want to always be honest and keep it real along this path and write about the things I have learnt…

FEAR!!!

I get scared now approaching 40 and I get scared of remaining in the UK with a mortgage, an overdraft and a heap of credit. Somehow in a relationship where sex every day for the first six months turns into sex once every two weeks on a Saturday morning. Sitting on a sofa with the control of my life as remote as the self control of what I daily consume. Then watching your and my partners waistlines expand as the bank balance decreases. Add to this the continual and constant friction about time, careers, interest rates, house prices, money money money and this is the recipe for hell on earth as I know it. I am scared of this life and I want to share that with you all.